Re: Letters To Gracie # 7

Years ago, when I was first writing these poems and was also deep into therapy, I truly felt that my childhood person and my adult person were different people. Not in the sense of having different personalities but that my child and my adult had been severed from each other. As an adult I did anything I could to not feel the pain of childhood. This took me down many dark side streets until I was almost totally lost. When I was 27 years old I finally came to a crossroad where I had to either face the pain of my life or abandon myself to it. I chose to face it but it sure wasn't easy. The child in me didn't trust my adult self to do the right thing anymore. Today my life is much different and I am trustworthy to myself and for those I love. The journey isn't over and I still have to work on my life but today I can say that I want to feel all my feelings. It beats the alternative of mental, emotional, and spiritual numbness.